CHOSEN

I read the words again and it seemed to me they began to change as I looked at them. Their edges became golden and they began to move as though alive. I read His words in red again out loud, "You did not choose me, but I chose you..." I closed my eyes and let His words surround me but other thoughts pushed their way in - memories from my childhood that told me something different about myself. I had never been chosen for anything. I was always the last kid on any team - the one no one wanted because "I wasn't good enough." I was too slow. Too clumsy. Too small. Too weak. Too dumb.

The "too labels" carried over into my adult years though they increased in number. I was too unnecessary. Too unneeded. Too lonely. Too old. My heart cried out to be wanted. To be enough for someone. And then as I searched for "chosenness" the too labels increased. I became: too far gone. Too used. Too lost. Too broken. As these "word-rocks" flew out of my past and landed at my feet I heard His voice through the dust, "I chose you." My heart looked up into the eyes of He who gave all for me and the labels from the past seemed to fall away as we sat together. He spoke those words again and His voice poured through my parched soul like a refreshing mountain spring on a hot day, "You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit - fruit that will last." He looked into the deep places of my soul and repeated His Words again, "I chose you." I felt His breath on my heart and other labels began to emerge. In His presence I am: precious. Loved. Wonderfully and fearfully made. Near His heart. Gifted for His purpose. Called to bear fruit. I have the hearing of the Father who sees me through the eyes of His precious Son.

I am CHOSEN.

Dear one, are you doing the "Too Step?" Do you see yourself as too small. Too weak. Too old. Too insignificant. Too lost. Too broken. God made a habit of calling the "too's." Those the world called weak, useless, scoundrels, adultresses, lost, uneducated, too old, God chose to shame the big, the wise, the well schooled. Shhh...be still. Do you hear Him? His voice thunders through your soul, "You did not choose me. I CHOSE YOU (emphasis mine) and appointed you to go and bear fruit - fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name." God chose you! Let His precious Words of truth surround you until you feel His very breath touch your heart as He whispers, "I CHOSE YOU."

Read John 15:16

An original Conversation by Diana Morgan
October 25, 2009